Your teeth are falling out and I am like a clinging baby to your breast, I need constant attention. I need all of you inside of me – I am starved of your affection, I can feel the tickle of its ebb and flow as you give me crumbs of words, then withdraw again. […]Read Post ›

But I can no longer get the consistency right, I take a chunk, it still tastes good, so I go back for more, the need to gorge is strong. The hole where I took the first piece is no longer there, it’s so fucking watery it’s shifted back into place, like tectonic plates. It looks […]Read Post ›

Lately I have begun to act differently, almost predatory. I have a hunger inside that is not fed with sweetness, but raw flesh. And I want all of it. Yet, when I get it I choke.  I feel conflicted, violently ambivalent.  I want the thrill of the chase, yet the security of having the prize. […]Read Post ›

What is it about the pervert, the peeping Tom, the degenerate that I so desire? And what sparked it off so young? What does my desire say about me? Does it speak of my childhood, my upbringing, my parents, my siblings, my friends, my ex partners, my first time, my fears, my thought processes, my […]Read Post ›

A false epiphany, or did that giant blockage finally release itself? I feel like I’ve just shook hands with a monstrous demon, who now in the light of day, looks more like a sweet celestial creature, who greets me on my road to self acceptance. Maybe it’s ok to be a little crazy, to have […]Read Post ›